From this post onwards..
From today onwards..
From now onwards..
I'm not gonna post about anything related to the r/s..
I wan to get over and done with it..
yes..i am bad..with all older post you can see..
i'm childish..
ming is right..i'm childish..
and i choose to be childish and refused to grow up..
so..i'm freaking determine to figure out with my mind..
my heart and my soul..
what i want? i what i need?
what i can change..
what i need to stay with..
and i'm freaking gonna move on..
freaking need to get rid of this negative attitude in me..
i want to get back my confidence i had lost..
get back the happy,bubbly and happy go lucky kind of me..
i missed that..
i dont wan to be locked up inside this dark world anymore..
i wan to him and them to disappear from my world..
i wan to go refresh the world i had..
without all of them..
not forgetting the lesson learnt..
i want to be a better person..
i want to open up my big eyes and see..
i want to grow my heart to feel..
i wan to expand my brain to think..
so that i can make the best out of the next r/s..
if it comes by..
DONT EVER MAKE THE SAME BLOODY MISTAKE AGAIN~!!!
IMPROVE MY OWN JUDGEMENT~!!
i tink the tornado i created, really swipe out everything in my way..
created chaos, lives injured..
i didnt know i was so powerful..
now its time..it should subside.. =)
i shall be down..use this hurtful time to tink..
and when time heals my wound..
den need u all to relink again~! whahaha..SRY NEH~!!
Thursday, October 30, 2008
you
Rightfully..you're right..
it's actually none of your business..
just that i wanted to let the anger/sadness/or whatever feeling out..
from the start..i didnt even said that you're involved..
i just said that he said that " bla bla bla"
dont know why is everyone thinking that i'm involving you..
and maybe due of what he said made me feel that i'm living under your shawdow..
feeling insecure..and all..
maybe you may think that the shadow had never been there..
cause you're not the one under it..
maybe you feel that you had nothing to hide..
but the closeness between both of you..
or the pictures that i seen..
just make me feel more uneasy..
i dont deny both of you are good friends..
but..doesnt mean that all girls can accept their bf to have a very close friend..
esp, one that has a story behind it..
at least, for me..i couldnt take it..
but he hide things from me..
and ya..coz he's afriad that i think too much..
so,if there is nothing to hide..why did he lied?i've no idea..
so.. i made assumptions..
assumptions that never had been there..
assumptions that made things more complicated and difficult..
i do admit that he's a very good friend..
he was a good bf..initally..
maybe i expected too much..or i'm too paranoid..
he couldnt understand why i acted this way..
dunno what i needed to stay clam.. maybe i'm too hot tempered..
neither can i understand why he have to do such things..
coz he didnt know how to handle..
or both of us doesnt know how to handle..
or just say that we dont fit into each other's world..
i cant accept his everything..
i cant accept that he is very different from me..
i cant accept his past..
i cant accept what he like..
i cant be less paranoid..
i cant be contented..
i cant control my temper..
i couldn't kan de kai..
i couldn't pretend that i dont care..
i couldn't pretend nothing happened..
i couldn't accept the reasons why he lied..
i didnt have confidence..
i didnt walk out of the shadow..
i didnt see it as simple..
i assume..
i think too much..
i care too much..
i afraid too much..
most important..i dunno what i SHOULD be saying..
and what i SHOULDN'T be saying..
which is a good lesson for me..
just wanted people to think in another angle..
b4 they start their heroic act..
i'm at fault..no one to blame..
it's me..doesnt know how to handle r/s,
properly..
i's me that started all these..
so..come,point all the arrows to me..
shoot me with all that all you've got..
are all of you happy now?
and you're right..
the choice is mine..
and i de things i do..made this r/s comes to an end..
i'm just not as magnanimous/as cheerful/as 董事..
but still..i dont feel as much guilt as i thought i would feel..
maybe i feel that, i'm not the only hand to make a clap..
so..from today onwards..
i choose to delete anyone related to this..
out of my world..
*note*
if you just happen to see me out there in the streets..
just happen that if you're wondering should you smile or nod..
just dont..
it's actually none of your business..
just that i wanted to let the anger/sadness/or whatever feeling out..
from the start..i didnt even said that you're involved..
i just said that he said that " bla bla bla"
dont know why is everyone thinking that i'm involving you..
and maybe due of what he said made me feel that i'm living under your shawdow..
feeling insecure..and all..
maybe you may think that the shadow had never been there..
cause you're not the one under it..
maybe you feel that you had nothing to hide..
but the closeness between both of you..
or the pictures that i seen..
just make me feel more uneasy..
i dont deny both of you are good friends..
but..doesnt mean that all girls can accept their bf to have a very close friend..
esp, one that has a story behind it..
at least, for me..i couldnt take it..
but he hide things from me..
and ya..coz he's afriad that i think too much..
so,if there is nothing to hide..why did he lied?i've no idea..
so.. i made assumptions..
assumptions that never had been there..
assumptions that made things more complicated and difficult..
i do admit that he's a very good friend..
he was a good bf..initally..
maybe i expected too much..or i'm too paranoid..
he couldnt understand why i acted this way..
dunno what i needed to stay clam.. maybe i'm too hot tempered..
neither can i understand why he have to do such things..
coz he didnt know how to handle..
or both of us doesnt know how to handle..
or just say that we dont fit into each other's world..
i cant accept his everything..
i cant accept that he is very different from me..
i cant accept his past..
i cant accept what he like..
i cant be less paranoid..
i cant be contented..
i cant control my temper..
i couldn't kan de kai..
i couldn't pretend that i dont care..
i couldn't pretend nothing happened..
i couldn't accept the reasons why he lied..
i didnt have confidence..
i didnt walk out of the shadow..
i didnt see it as simple..
i assume..
i think too much..
i care too much..
i afraid too much..
most important..i dunno what i SHOULD be saying..
and what i SHOULDN'T be saying..
which is a good lesson for me..
just wanted people to think in another angle..
b4 they start their heroic act..
i'm at fault..no one to blame..
it's me..doesnt know how to handle r/s,
properly..
i's me that started all these..
so..come,point all the arrows to me..
shoot me with all that all you've got..
are all of you happy now?
and you're right..
the choice is mine..
and i de things i do..made this r/s comes to an end..
i'm just not as magnanimous/as cheerful/as 董事..
but still..i dont feel as much guilt as i thought i would feel..
maybe i feel that, i'm not the only hand to make a clap..
so..from today onwards..
i choose to delete anyone related to this..
out of my world..
*note*
if you just happen to see me out there in the streets..
just happen that if you're wondering should you smile or nod..
just dont..
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
The Mayonnaise Jar & 2 Cups of Coffee
When things in your life seem almost too much to handle,
when 24 hours in a day are not enough,
remember the mayonnaise jar and the 2 cups of coffee .
A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him.
When the class began, he wordlessly picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar
and proceeded to fill it with golf balls.
He then asked the students if the jar was full.
They agreed that it was.
The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar
He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls.
He then asked the students again if the jar was full.
They agreed it was.
The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar.
Of course, the sand filled up everything else.
He asked once more if the jar was full.
The students responded with an unanimous 'yes.'
The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table
and poured the entire contents into the jar effectively filling the
empty space between the sand.
The students laughed.
'Now,' said the professor as the laughter subsided,
'I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life.
The golf balls are the important things---
your family, your children, your health, your friends and your favorite passions---
and if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full.
The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your house and your car.
The sand is everything else---the small stuff.
'If you put the sand into the jar first,' he continued,
'there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls.
The same goes for life.
If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff,
you will never have room for the things that are important to you.
'Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness..
Spend time with your children. Spend time with your parents..
Visit with grandparents. Take time to get medical checkups.
Take your spouse out to dinner. Play another boardgame.
There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal.
Take care of the golf balls first---the things that really matter.
Set your priorities.
The rest is just sand.
'One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented.
The professor smiled and said, 'I'm glad you asked.'
The coffee just shows you that no matter how full your life may seem,
there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend.'
Please share this with someone you care about..
I just did :)
i'm gonna stop myself from spending time on small little stuff..
i need to go on to big stuff..
no matter what happened..
the sun is still gonna rise tml..
life still got to go on..
even without him..
i still can choose to create a beautiful tml..
and choose to walk out of the gloomy ytd..
i need to carry on with my life~!
when 24 hours in a day are not enough,
remember the mayonnaise jar and the 2 cups of coffee .
A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him.
When the class began, he wordlessly picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar
and proceeded to fill it with golf balls.
He then asked the students if the jar was full.
They agreed that it was.
The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar
He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls.
He then asked the students again if the jar was full.
They agreed it was.
The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar.
Of course, the sand filled up everything else.
He asked once more if the jar was full.
The students responded with an unanimous 'yes.'
The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table
and poured the entire contents into the jar effectively filling the
empty space between the sand.
The students laughed.
'Now,' said the professor as the laughter subsided,
'I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life.
The golf balls are the important things---
your family, your children, your health, your friends and your favorite passions---
and if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full.
The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your house and your car.
The sand is everything else---the small stuff.
'If you put the sand into the jar first,' he continued,
'there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls.
The same goes for life.
If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff,
you will never have room for the things that are important to you.
'Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness..
Spend time with your children. Spend time with your parents..
Visit with grandparents. Take time to get medical checkups.
Take your spouse out to dinner. Play another boardgame.
There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal.
Take care of the golf balls first---the things that really matter.
Set your priorities.
The rest is just sand.
'One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented.
The professor smiled and said, 'I'm glad you asked.'
The coffee just shows you that no matter how full your life may seem,
there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend.'
Please share this with someone you care about..
I just did :)
i'm gonna stop myself from spending time on small little stuff..
i need to go on to big stuff..
no matter what happened..
the sun is still gonna rise tml..
life still got to go on..
even without him..
i still can choose to create a beautiful tml..
and choose to walk out of the gloomy ytd..
i need to carry on with my life~!
Monday, October 27, 2008
looking back, feeling sad (please read this post..before you comment)
was looking back..
reading this booklet..i kept..for him..
it contains all the sweet little smses from him..
from time to time..
i only wrote the sweets ones..
coz i dont wan to remember the times which we quarrel..
我把他对我每一滴的爱，都写在里头。。
when we quarrel..i always read this booklet..
and tell myself that..he is a good bf..
looking back at how much i'm not ready for a r/s
how much encouraging words he said so that i could take a step forward..
telling be he will be my light..if i'm lost in the darkness..
what i need to do..is to just follow the light..
telling me i dont need to change..
just be myself..
i was being myself..
over jealous..lack of confidence in the r/s
i wasnt ready to be another one's gf..
i dont know how to be..
i dont know how to be a good gf..
i can not be as magnanimous..i'll jealous..
maybe i was badly hurt b4..
i'm so afraid that i'll lose him..
i so afraid that i'll be hurt again..
maybe that's why i've tied him down so much..
eventually..
eventually i got touched by him..
not by any flowers,plush toys,gifts..
just because a bottle of herbal tea..
maybe you'll laugh..
maybe is just cost a dollar over..
but that's the most expensive gift..
its his genuine care and concern..
that was the first..
and also the last..maybe?
i cant remember when was the last time..
he got me a herbal tea..
i only remembered i kept 打包 homemade herbal tea for him..
almost everyweek..coz i'm afarid he had ulcers again..
i buy him medication..westen ones..easten ones..
how many of you actually help him get medication when he have ulcers..
the most you do is "wow,so big ar..pain anot"
or "you can eat things anot?"
if you're really his friend..is this "this much" you can do??
i am a person who needs other's care and concern..
attention..esp from my bf..
i wished he can do sweet little things for me..
maybe it's just a sketch work..
maybe it's just a hand written letter..
its enough..i dont measure sweetness with the amount of $$$ spent on me..
i'm not good with words..
i dont know how to tell him..how much i love him..
i only use actions to prove it..
i wanted to support him to do wat he love too..
like bBall..but everytime i see him play bBall..
he want to do his best..拼了命，也要把每一场球打好。。
if he didnt do as well as he expected..
he felt depress..
i remember one game in sch..
he wasnt onform..after the match..
he sit in the court..alone..
i went there..to ask him how he is..
he just said.."nothing la.."
and walked away..
left me sitting in the court..
do you know how bad i feel..
to see him at like this?
its another side of him i never saw b4..
when someone bang into him..he fall..
i cant bare to see him fall..i feel so heart ache..
but, 又有谁知道？？
i'm so afarid that he will get hurt..
everytime he come back with a swollen leg..
we cant go out on saturdays..i feel so down..
but i went to his hse..take care of him..
his friends..where were all of you??
i saw his leg..心很痛。。
可是，我又能做什么？
i cant stop him play ball..but it hurts me so much..
to see him got himself hurt..
how much struggle i have to take?
hoping he'll be fine everytime he goes for Bball..
but, 又有谁知道？？
i didnt know..if i hold the kite too tight..
it will break..
i just know that..if i hold de kite too lose..
it will fall down..
guess all of you are right..
i'm childish..
i just like a little kid..dacing in the hall way..
yearning attention from parents..
hoping all the attention will be on her..
other than the smses..
i also wrote a diary about us..
alot of heart felt words..
i didnt tell him..i dont know how to..
i dont know how to open my mouth and say..
de most i sms..
but i wrote them down..i wrote down my feelings..
hoping one day..he will be able to read it..
now that he never will..i'll still write a beautiful ending..
i only hope that he love me the way i wanted..
but never know that..he's already giving the best he could..
i only love him the way i think is the best..
i giving him wat i tink is the best..
but didnt know, that is not what he wanted..
when he is in NS,i was so worried..
i worried about his health..i worried about his leg..
each week we spent so little time with each other..
i only get to see him on weekends..
why must everyone of you compete with me?
why?
everyweek..i try my best to encourage him..
no matter how much he dont wan to go back in..
no matter how much i hate to see him go in..
i still have you..
i even got him a box with all kinds of medication inside..
when he sick..i'm so worried..but he couldnt come back..
i'm so afraid that one of the unfortunate events might happen..
i couldnt sleep properly..i cant concentrate on my work..
only thing i can do..is to wait..
wait for his sms..wait for his call..
how agonising it is.. i tell myself..i cant fall sick..
if not, no one will be there..
all these, 又有谁知道？？
his friends..all you all did is wanted to meet up with him..
wanted to know how army is like..
wanted to know how he is inside..
wanted to know can he cope inside..
but we already spent so little time together each week..
cant you spare a thought for me?
when he told me that..no one ever celebrated his birthday for him..
i was shocked totally..i was tinking..
i thought you said you've a bunch of good friends wat..
why they didnt celebrate for you?
so what you bought him presents..
is this what he wanted?
i guess what he wanted, is someone who could remember his birthday..
and he feels that..something bad will happen to him..
on his birthday..
i tried my very best to prove him wrong..
even though we still quarrel on this birthday 2 years back..
but..i try my best to make him feel that he's not alone..
someone out there still cares for you as much..
no matter is me alone..below his hse with a cake..with a simple website..
or a cake in sch with our classmates..
or mass msn wishes..when the clock strikes 12..
i really did everything i could..to make him feel happy..
but i guess in the end..all its not what he wanted..
i guess he just need someone to be with him..
telling him that..nothing bad is gonna happen..
i'm saying all these..
not that i want anyone to 可怜我，同情我。
or agree with me.. or feel apologetic..
i'm say it coz,i'm feeling sad..
i did everything i could to support him..
i really really did my best..trying not be jealous..
i really learn to give him his freedom..
i let him play the Bball he wanted..but sometimes..
he is very busy..doesnt mean everytime he didnt turn up for games..
its coz of me..
he go out with his friends..i didnt even ask anything..
just hope that he can call me when he reach home..
just that i still cant, really cant tahan..seeing him with girls..
maybe it's really my bottom line..
and we cant compromise on that..
i just feel like..很委屈。。
coz all of you just saw how angry i am..
how pissed off..how unreasonable i am..
but none of you know, none of you see..
the reasons behind all the unreasonables..
and just judge me with my exterior..
do anyone of you understands me?
reading this booklet..i kept..for him..
it contains all the sweet little smses from him..
from time to time..
i only wrote the sweets ones..
coz i dont wan to remember the times which we quarrel..
我把他对我每一滴的爱，都写在里头。。
when we quarrel..i always read this booklet..
and tell myself that..he is a good bf..
looking back at how much i'm not ready for a r/s
how much encouraging words he said so that i could take a step forward..
telling be he will be my light..if i'm lost in the darkness..
what i need to do..is to just follow the light..
telling me i dont need to change..
just be myself..
i was being myself..
over jealous..lack of confidence in the r/s
i wasnt ready to be another one's gf..
i dont know how to be..
i dont know how to be a good gf..
i can not be as magnanimous..i'll jealous..
maybe i was badly hurt b4..
i'm so afraid that i'll lose him..
i so afraid that i'll be hurt again..
maybe that's why i've tied him down so much..
eventually..
eventually i got touched by him..
not by any flowers,plush toys,gifts..
just because a bottle of herbal tea..
maybe you'll laugh..
maybe is just cost a dollar over..
but that's the most expensive gift..
its his genuine care and concern..
that was the first..
and also the last..maybe?
i cant remember when was the last time..
he got me a herbal tea..
i only remembered i kept 打包 homemade herbal tea for him..
almost everyweek..coz i'm afarid he had ulcers again..
i buy him medication..westen ones..easten ones..
how many of you actually help him get medication when he have ulcers..
the most you do is "wow,so big ar..pain anot"
or "you can eat things anot?"
if you're really his friend..is this "this much" you can do??
i am a person who needs other's care and concern..
attention..esp from my bf..
i wished he can do sweet little things for me..
maybe it's just a sketch work..
maybe it's just a hand written letter..
its enough..i dont measure sweetness with the amount of $$$ spent on me..
i'm not good with words..
i dont know how to tell him..how much i love him..
i only use actions to prove it..
i wanted to support him to do wat he love too..
like bBall..but everytime i see him play bBall..
he want to do his best..拼了命，也要把每一场球打好。。
if he didnt do as well as he expected..
he felt depress..
i remember one game in sch..
he wasnt onform..after the match..
he sit in the court..alone..
i went there..to ask him how he is..
he just said.."nothing la.."
and walked away..
left me sitting in the court..
do you know how bad i feel..
to see him at like this?
its another side of him i never saw b4..
when someone bang into him..he fall..
i cant bare to see him fall..i feel so heart ache..
but, 又有谁知道？？
i'm so afarid that he will get hurt..
everytime he come back with a swollen leg..
we cant go out on saturdays..i feel so down..
but i went to his hse..take care of him..
his friends..where were all of you??
i saw his leg..心很痛。。
可是，我又能做什么？
i cant stop him play ball..but it hurts me so much..
to see him got himself hurt..
how much struggle i have to take?
hoping he'll be fine everytime he goes for Bball..
but, 又有谁知道？？
i didnt know..if i hold the kite too tight..
it will break..
i just know that..if i hold de kite too lose..
it will fall down..
guess all of you are right..
i'm childish..
i just like a little kid..dacing in the hall way..
yearning attention from parents..
hoping all the attention will be on her..
other than the smses..
i also wrote a diary about us..
alot of heart felt words..
i didnt tell him..i dont know how to..
i dont know how to open my mouth and say..
de most i sms..
but i wrote them down..i wrote down my feelings..
hoping one day..he will be able to read it..
now that he never will..i'll still write a beautiful ending..
i only hope that he love me the way i wanted..
but never know that..he's already giving the best he could..
i only love him the way i think is the best..
i giving him wat i tink is the best..
but didnt know, that is not what he wanted..
when he is in NS,i was so worried..
i worried about his health..i worried about his leg..
each week we spent so little time with each other..
i only get to see him on weekends..
why must everyone of you compete with me?
why?
everyweek..i try my best to encourage him..
no matter how much he dont wan to go back in..
no matter how much i hate to see him go in..
i still have you..
i even got him a box with all kinds of medication inside..
when he sick..i'm so worried..but he couldnt come back..
i'm so afraid that one of the unfortunate events might happen..
i couldnt sleep properly..i cant concentrate on my work..
only thing i can do..is to wait..
wait for his sms..wait for his call..
how agonising it is.. i tell myself..i cant fall sick..
if not, no one will be there..
all these, 又有谁知道？？
his friends..all you all did is wanted to meet up with him..
wanted to know how army is like..
wanted to know how he is inside..
wanted to know can he cope inside..
but we already spent so little time together each week..
cant you spare a thought for me?
when he told me that..no one ever celebrated his birthday for him..
i was shocked totally..i was tinking..
i thought you said you've a bunch of good friends wat..
why they didnt celebrate for you?
so what you bought him presents..
is this what he wanted?
i guess what he wanted, is someone who could remember his birthday..
and he feels that..something bad will happen to him..
on his birthday..
i tried my very best to prove him wrong..
even though we still quarrel on this birthday 2 years back..
but..i try my best to make him feel that he's not alone..
someone out there still cares for you as much..
no matter is me alone..below his hse with a cake..with a simple website..
or a cake in sch with our classmates..
or mass msn wishes..when the clock strikes 12..
i really did everything i could..to make him feel happy..
but i guess in the end..all its not what he wanted..
i guess he just need someone to be with him..
telling him that..nothing bad is gonna happen..
i'm saying all these..
not that i want anyone to 可怜我，同情我。
or agree with me.. or feel apologetic..
i'm say it coz,i'm feeling sad..
i did everything i could to support him..
i really really did my best..trying not be jealous..
i really learn to give him his freedom..
i let him play the Bball he wanted..but sometimes..
he is very busy..doesnt mean everytime he didnt turn up for games..
its coz of me..
he go out with his friends..i didnt even ask anything..
just hope that he can call me when he reach home..
just that i still cant, really cant tahan..seeing him with girls..
maybe it's really my bottom line..
and we cant compromise on that..
i just feel like..很委屈。。
coz all of you just saw how angry i am..
how pissed off..how unreasonable i am..
but none of you know, none of you see..
the reasons behind all the unreasonables..
and just judge me with my exterior..
do anyone of you understands me?
Friday, October 24, 2008
爱情
原以为，爱情会是一个很美丽的童话故事，
是很漂亮的一幅画。。
以为，当两个相爱的人在一起时，
能一起面对各种的风浪，任何一种难题。。
以为，爱情能让自己在对方的心里，
觉得是一百分的，是无暇的。。
以为，爱情能接受一切的不完美，
就算别人用鄙视的眼光，难听的言语，抨击自己，
爱情会像一层保护墨，保护着自己。。
以为，只要自己付出，做足一切，
对方就会看得到，感受的道，
那份我对他的爱。。
就算，不是他要的方式，
他也会感受的道。。
以为，爱情是充满惊喜，
充满着幸福的味道，
充满着快乐，甜蜜的拥抱。。
什么，都不重要。。
只要有，对方，就会是足够的。。
突然，觉得自己好没用。。
好幼稚，应为，这样的童话故事，
根本，就不可能发生。。
就应为一个人的离开。。
我的心就破了个洞。。
头脑也破了个洞。。
自己迷失的方向。。
每天睡觉之前，
都告诉自己，明天， 明天就会好起来的。。
但，当天亮时，发现， 一切还是一样。。
就算我微笑，表现的毫不在意。。
表面上，看起来很坚强。。
尽量，不再任何人面前哭。。
我，
不希望让朋友一直安慰我，
不希望让家人一直担心我。。
但，心里面的伤口， 还是一直在滴着血。。
我要如何复原?
*ps*
i need to thank all the people who been with me..
Serying..my bud bud..thankz~!
accompany me..going for band,
shopping,talk,facial..
next..we shall pick up photography tgt =)
HuiQin huu huu..
thankz for accompany me lunch,toilet break, tear..
making me smile..buying me bin bin..
feel angry or sad tgt with me me..
Couz Jasmine..
hug me..accompay till late night..
telling me her story..so that i feel better..
Steph and Kai..
hear me crap,talk,whine
early in the morning..
give me advices,share stories
my lab de students..
should say friends la..
pot luck tgt..laugh out loud..
bitch tgt, including guys..
Ryan and Anson very jia liat..i know..
All those who cared..
in one way or another..
Last but NEVER de least..
MY MUM~!!
she accompany me talk..
till 2am..even though she got work de next morning..
told me every positive reason she could find..
to make me feel better..
cook and buy things i like to eat..
even though she didnt hug me..
but..this is love..
Thank God..
for giving me every best thing i could have..
and i believe behind every lesson..
there is a reason..
是很漂亮的一幅画。。
以为，当两个相爱的人在一起时，
能一起面对各种的风浪，任何一种难题。。
以为，爱情能让自己在对方的心里，
觉得是一百分的，是无暇的。。
以为，爱情能接受一切的不完美，
就算别人用鄙视的眼光，难听的言语，抨击自己，
爱情会像一层保护墨，保护着自己。。
以为，只要自己付出，做足一切，
对方就会看得到，感受的道，
那份我对他的爱。。
就算，不是他要的方式，
他也会感受的道。。
以为，爱情是充满惊喜，
充满着幸福的味道，
充满着快乐，甜蜜的拥抱。。
什么，都不重要。。
只要有，对方，就会是足够的。。
突然，觉得自己好没用。。
好幼稚，应为，这样的童话故事，
根本，就不可能发生。。
就应为一个人的离开。。
我的心就破了个洞。。
头脑也破了个洞。。
自己迷失的方向。。
每天睡觉之前，
都告诉自己，明天， 明天就会好起来的。。
但，当天亮时，发现， 一切还是一样。。
就算我微笑，表现的毫不在意。。
表面上，看起来很坚强。。
尽量，不再任何人面前哭。。
我，
不希望让朋友一直安慰我，
不希望让家人一直担心我。。
但，心里面的伤口， 还是一直在滴着血。。
我要如何复原?
*ps*
i need to thank all the people who been with me..
Serying..my bud bud..thankz~!
accompany me..going for band,
shopping,talk,facial..
next..we shall pick up photography tgt =)
HuiQin huu huu..
thankz for accompany me lunch,toilet break, tear..
making me smile..buying me bin bin..
feel angry or sad tgt with me me..
Couz Jasmine..
hug me..accompay till late night..
telling me her story..so that i feel better..
Steph and Kai..
hear me crap,talk,whine
early in the morning..
give me advices,share stories
my lab de students..
should say friends la..
pot luck tgt..laugh out loud..
bitch tgt, including guys..
Ryan and Anson very jia liat..i know..
All those who cared..
in one way or another..
Last but NEVER de least..
MY MUM~!!
she accompany me talk..
till 2am..even though she got work de next morning..
told me every positive reason she could find..
to make me feel better..
cook and buy things i like to eat..
even though she didnt hug me..
but..this is love..
Thank God..
for giving me every best thing i could have..
and i believe behind every lesson..
there is a reason..
Monday, October 20, 2008
好朋友
每个人用不同的方式表达自己。。
但， 不是每个人都能接受莫一种表达方式。。
就算是好朋友，也不例外。。
虽然， 事情已发生。。
我也知道已无法挽回。。
无法到转。。
面对， 是我必须学会的。。
但，那一刻，
我最脆弱的那一刻，
我需要的是朋友的关心。。
不是说一些，让人觉得讽刺的话语。。
我知道，你是关心我的。。
也知道，你表达的是另一面的关怀。。
可是。。当我还处于未冷静的状态时。。
你说的话，让我未复原的伤口， 更痛。。
就连医生也要先止血， 在缝合伤口吧。。
重点是，要在对的时候，说对的话。。
不能认为，对你来说，是最好的。。
也用你觉得最好的方式，对待他人。。
应为，那不一定是他人觉得最好的方式。。
有些时候，解释是必然的。。
否则，误会将越来越深。。
我明了，你是无心之过。。
也接受你的道歉。。
希望你能明白，
在有些时候，你说的一些话。。
真的让我， 或， 我们真的觉得不好受。。
虽然，不是有意的。。
但，还是会痛。。
就应为是朋友。。
才会痛。。
谢谢你，我的好朋友。。
我知道， 你是为我好。。
最近
最近-李圣杰
你最近不说话
怎么了，为什么
是不是有什么事啊
让你不快乐
听说你最近很孤单
有点乱 有点慌
可是我却不能够在你的身旁
你想要的我却不能够给你我全部
我能给的却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束 不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路
你最近不说话
怎么了，为什么
是不是有什么事讓你不快乐
听说你最近很孤单
有点乱 有点慌
可是我却不能够在你的身旁
你想要的我却不能够给你我全部
我能给的却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束 不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路
爱我却不能够给你我全部
我能给的却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束 不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路 这一次我们都能很幸福
你最近不说话
怎么了，为什么
是不是有什么事啊
让你不快乐
听说你最近很孤单
有点乱 有点慌
可是我却不能够在你的身旁
你想要的我却不能够给你我全部
我能给的却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束 不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路
你最近不说话
怎么了，为什么
是不是有什么事讓你不快乐
听说你最近很孤单
有点乱 有点慌
可是我却不能够在你的身旁
你想要的我却不能够给你我全部
我能给的却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束 不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路
爱我却不能够给你我全部
我能给的却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束 不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路 这一次我们都能很幸福
Sunday, October 19, 2008
Who Can Repair Me?
I need a human mechanic..
to repair me.....zZZzz
i'm breaking down..
i mean my body..
both my knee hurts..
-did i over exercise myself?
my back bone hurts even more..
-i got sit properly wat...hmmm...
my right elbows injury is back again..
-i think i over exsert my right arm..
only my left arm is in working condition..
zZzZZzz
its time i bandage myself..
and be transformed into MUMMY..
==================================
Went for band prac ytd =)
i love music, for all i can say..
coz only in the world of music..
all thoughts will disappear..
no matter how tired i'm..
after 3.5 hours of continuous playing..
i become more energetic.. LOL..
it makes me happy, relive stress..
enjoy music making..
i remember 3 weeks ago..
i cant even read notes properly..
*still need to count them somemore*
but ytd..i can start to play properly..
just that i hope my fingers can run faster..
*run fingers, run~*
to repair me.....zZZzz
i'm breaking down..
i mean my body..
both my knee hurts..
-did i over exercise myself?
my back bone hurts even more..
-i got sit properly wat...hmmm...
my right elbows injury is back again..
-i think i over exsert my right arm..
only my left arm is in working condition..
zZzZZzz
its time i bandage myself..
and be transformed into MUMMY..
==================================
Went for band prac ytd =)
i love music, for all i can say..
coz only in the world of music..
all thoughts will disappear..
no matter how tired i'm..
after 3.5 hours of continuous playing..
i become more energetic.. LOL..
it makes me happy, relive stress..
enjoy music making..
i remember 3 weeks ago..
i cant even read notes properly..
*still need to count them somemore*
but ytd..i can start to play properly..
just that i hope my fingers can run faster..
*run fingers, run~*
Saturday, October 18, 2008
Man and Women
The defination of woman to me is:
Emotional, Illogical and Complex kind of animal..
They can choose to be weak for their man..
and they can choose to be strong when being alone..
They use their emotions to think..
Even though the logical brain says the other direction..
They want to be heard..
and they dont wan solutions..
They want attention..
but dont want to be controlled..
They want to listen to truth..
but when the truth hurts..they prefer lies..
They always say something..
but they meant it the other way..
The defination of Man to me is:
Illogical and Complex kind of animal..
They want their lady to be independent,
but they want to them to listen to him and do as he says..
They dont like to share their lady with other man,
but they like attention from other ladies..
They love challenges..
but when challenges appear..they hide in their cave..
They lie..
hoping the lady will never found out..
if the lady did..he hopes she can understand..
They think money can conquer everything..
eventually they lost the valuable love to money..
Conclusion:
Man and Women are very differnt..
To man, Women are very tough to understand..
To woman, man is vert difficult to understand..
it all comes down to..
how much they love each other..
how much they want to be understood..
how much they try to let others understand them..
how much they want to understand the others..
but..there is one thing they're the same:
always feels that they are right..
that's why quarrels happen..
even when they say sorry..they still thinks that they're right..
Sumarize: "It's Complicated"
I hate the feeling of being on "Hold"..
but..do i have the courage to face the truth?
or do i prefer the lie?
which is the truth and which is the lie?
depends how you see it =)
让时间来证明一切
Emotional, Illogical and Complex kind of animal..
They can choose to be weak for their man..
and they can choose to be strong when being alone..
They use their emotions to think..
Even though the logical brain says the other direction..
They want to be heard..
and they dont wan solutions..
They want attention..
but dont want to be controlled..
They want to listen to truth..
but when the truth hurts..they prefer lies..
They always say something..
but they meant it the other way..
The defination of Man to me is:
Illogical and Complex kind of animal..
They want their lady to be independent,
but they want to them to listen to him and do as he says..
They dont like to share their lady with other man,
but they like attention from other ladies..
They love challenges..
but when challenges appear..they hide in their cave..
They lie..
hoping the lady will never found out..
if the lady did..he hopes she can understand..
They think money can conquer everything..
eventually they lost the valuable love to money..
Conclusion:
Man and Women are very differnt..
To man, Women are very tough to understand..
To woman, man is vert difficult to understand..
it all comes down to..
how much they love each other..
how much they want to be understood..
how much they try to let others understand them..
how much they want to understand the others..
but..there is one thing they're the same:
always feels that they are right..
that's why quarrels happen..
even when they say sorry..they still thinks that they're right..
Sumarize: "It's Complicated"
I hate the feeling of being on "Hold"..
but..do i have the courage to face the truth?
or do i prefer the lie?
which is the truth and which is the lie?
depends how you see it =)
让时间来证明一切
Jazsica's Treasure Box
Ah haR~Qin..Reading my post~
This is my treasure box~!
This is my treasure box~!
Took a very long time to prepare this post..
sort out the cards,arrage,take pics,photoshop..
but its's Worth IT =)
but its's Worth IT =)
Very Very little people know that i love cards..
and have been collecting them over the years..
now~ everyone who is reading my blog..knows...
It's not an secret anymore~
If i'm not wrong i started my collection since 14..
coz i couldn't find any cards b4 14..lol..
I have birthday cards, Xmas,Chinese new year ones..
letters of encouragement,notes,post cards..etc..
One Full Box of Cards..
i love hand made cards especially..
Coz that's where you know if a person really put in effort
and you can feel how important you're to them..
i like the feeling of receiving mails or cards..
and the excitement of opening them..
Looking a every different design..
Reading each unique hand writing,wishes and blessings..
this is something that an E-card can never replace =)
if you notice..i seldom send E-cards..
unless in some special case..
I've the most Xmas cards(this is only part of them),
maybe that's the only period people will buy cards..
LOL..
CNY cards..
Surprisingly i didnt recieve RED CNY cards..
红炸弹!!!
Birthday cards..
Actually i dont need anything for my birthday...
One hand-made birthday card is really enough for me =)
Those were the days..
Happiness,Sadness,Toughness & Memories
This is one of my Fave card..
I dont mean that i dont love the others..
I do kae~!
but i like this coz its filled with colors..
I'm sure you can see, how much effort the creator put in..
Thankz eLaine for the creating the card~
The Collage of my Birthday Cards,
since the Age of 14..
Realize there is no Valentine's Card?
There is..From my friends..During Sec Sch times..
For the past 2 years? Nope..
i wonder if he knows..
i love cards..
i wonder if he knows..
i love cards..
but i love 2 drawings/sketching he did for me..
but it was 2 years ago..when we just started out..
i still kept it in good condition..
As time passes..lesser and lesser effort is put into our r/s..
As time passes..lesser and lesser effort is put into our r/s..
oh well..
Anyway..i dont care how much one spent on me..
is the effort that counts..
Thank for every single card..My Friends..
*ps*
-wait for The JTB-Jazsica's Treasure Box II next weekend-
Friday, October 17, 2008
follow up on my bro's birthday
Birthday Treat Of Coz - Ajiteh @PS
i love Ajiteh @ PS..the food there is just great..
*drools*
We ordered( from left to right):
Tonpeiyaki $4.80 ^^VVVVv
Fried Tofu $4.80 ^^VVVVv
Spinach Bacon Omurice(limited sets/day) $11.80 ^^VVVv
Chicken Curry Omurice $10.80 ^^VVVV
Mango Parfait $5.80 ^^VVV
went to Yamaha to get Music Theory book..
I wanna take music theory~!!!
Anyways..i found a new name for Yamaha..
As above, A-Ha-May..
Lame..~ i know~~~
Cant blog as much as usual..
later kanna bao tuo by the bao tuo kia~!
Qin..will update my treasure box this weekend..
remember to keep a look out..
well..to add on..
Qin and me got a Vivitar Ultra Slim & Wide $25
Cant wait to take breath taking photos with it..
*超期待的^^*
Also waiting for 不良笑花 to be updated~!
Thankz Qin~~呼呼~!~!
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
15h Oct - My beloved's Birthday
Happie Birthday My Love~!!
Hope you get what you want la hor~!
other mushy mushy words no need say liao..
Cause i see you almost everyday..
Same interest, you listens to me when no one can..
You know me the best =)
Eh..eH~!!
Dont anyhow think hor..
Dont anyhow think hor..
He's my beloved and one & only..
unique 到不可以再 unique 的 Brother =)
Yup..WE argue over who's going down to get lunch..
WE fight over usage of computer..
need to exchange rooms and beds,coz he wanna chiong game at night..
WE argue over who is gonna do the housework,
or who is doing more or doing what..
But he's also the fews that saw me through my ups and downs..
when i'm upset and i walk into his room..
he'll hear me talk and see me cry..
never hugged him though..
never hugged him though..
help me to get stuff when i'm sick..
i always "Ka Jiao" him, when i got nothing to do..
WE threaten each other,WE try scare the hell out of each other..
WE play stupid & childish games..talk cock and go out together..
WE 're each other's "Image Consultant"
WE quarrel and return to our own rooms..
not a "Sorry" is needed..coz WE know each other too well..
actions will prove it..
Thank God for giving me this Wonderful brother for this life time..
I guess we're very closely knitted together..
Not everyone is so fortunate like us..
I wish this will last~ ^^
Happy 18th Birthday My Brother~
You can now buy 4D~!!
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Mummie Away
mNo 温暖牌 dinner for this 2 days..
Mummie when away to batam~~
Hope that you'll have fun and enjoy..
She's now a millionaire le~
Wh0Ho0~~haha~!
Tml is my irritating brother the 18th birthday~
dont know why..in my mind..he's still 16..
ah haR~!!!
he can go buy 4D liao..
den my parents wont ask mi go help them buy~LOL~~
i muz remember he's 18 liao..
he cant decide what to eat..since last fridae..
OMG~!!
heLlo~!!! if you cant decide..
den dont eat ba~!
i can save the money you know~ LOL
Mummie when away to batam~~
Hope that you'll have fun and enjoy..
She's now a millionaire le~
Wh0Ho0~~haha~!
Tml is my irritating brother the 18th birthday~
dont know why..in my mind..he's still 16..
ah haR~!!!
he can go buy 4D liao..
den my parents wont ask mi go help them buy~LOL~~
i muz remember he's 18 liao..
he cant decide what to eat..since last fridae..
OMG~!!
heLlo~!!! if you cant decide..
den dont eat ba~!
i can save the money you know~ LOL
Monday, October 13, 2008
WeEkend~
weekend..with ser ser~~
hmm..lets see..what we did..
oh..
went ps..SHOPPING~!
visit StarDust..Cosmestic shop..@ 3rd floor of PS..
Tested Kose's lotion..
Quite dissapointed..cause the product contains alcohol..
can smell the strong alcohol smell, instead of the herbs..
so my thought of buying it..
*vanishes into thin air*
bought a make up brush set(consist of 7 brushes) @ $30..
CHEAP de loh~
coz de material is VeryVeRry soft..
wanted to buy mascara..but..broke~
went to Yamaha..check out flute price..
Shifu..if you're reading this..
FYL 381 is $1,300+++~
Can you sponsor me? lol..
wanted to get cleanin rods,cloths and stuff..
but they just renovated..need to go back in 2 weeks time..
sunday..went singing..
sing 到我沙哑了 =x
bought Fancl oil blotter..
*its really good~!!!!*
Mos-ed the burger..
and went back home..
Waiting for my pay..
i've got so much much things on my "To Buy List"
-i need to do something to my hair..SOON~!-
i wanna be 美美..
hmm..lets see..what we did..
oh..
went ps..SHOPPING~!
visit StarDust..Cosmestic shop..@ 3rd floor of PS..
Tested Kose's lotion..
Quite dissapointed..cause the product contains alcohol..
can smell the strong alcohol smell, instead of the herbs..
so my thought of buying it..
*vanishes into thin air*
bought a make up brush set(consist of 7 brushes) @ $30..
CHEAP de loh~
coz de material is VeryVeRry soft..
wanted to buy mascara..but..broke~
went to Yamaha..check out flute price..
Shifu..if you're reading this..
FYL 381 is $1,300+++~
Can you sponsor me? lol..
wanted to get cleanin rods,cloths and stuff..
but they just renovated..need to go back in 2 weeks time..
sunday..went singing..
sing 到我沙哑了 =x
bought Fancl oil blotter..
*its really good~!!!!*
Mos-ed the burger..
and went back home..
Waiting for my pay..
i've got so much much things on my "To Buy List"
-i need to do something to my hair..SOON~!-
i wanna be 美美..
Sunday, October 12, 2008
Bon Voyage
Bon Voyage to my Lab Students:
Lee Chang Yuan aka Red Bag + Si Kin Na
Benjamin Low aka Weird Laughing Guy
Reuben Foo aka Weird Actions Guy
Take great care over at Beijing..
Why we cant go over to help mark attendence?LOL..
Why we cant go over to help mark attendence?LOL..
Remember to apply moisturizer and lip balm~
See you back in 6 weeks time..
I think our lab will be very quiet liao~~
*ps*
remember what you all
suppose to remember ar~
wHahaHaha~~
Jazs.吟
Saturday, October 11, 2008
Blabber
Today was searching high and low for all the concert booklets..
Cause i want to help to design the concert booklet
for this year Yuying Concert Band & Alumni Band's year end concert..
i need references~!!!!
你们不要躲了，快点出来！！！
oh wait..or did i throw them away? ?
S*** !!
i cant remember liao..
*how i hope i can apply the STM in other areas*
oh well..nvm..
While serching high and low..
i found my treasure box..
haha~!
Treasure box lei..
only a few people know..what are the "STUFFs" inside..
haha..i'll reveal the secret nx weekend..
*mystery~!!*
when i've the time to take nice nice pictures of them =)
i need to start practicing my flute..
singing :" it's like S**t, it like S**t"
if not i wont be able to make it for the year end concert liao~
this few weeks..my r/s had affected my life..
like TOTALLY~!
but.. i tell myself..
from monday onwards,
i wont let it to affect my life again..
life is too short to waste~!!!!
*Jazs Jia You~!*
i need to work my Unity 3d out..
which i hope i can smash the MAC..
where people wish to have one..
i need to work out..
xmas and new year is coming~ i wan nice clothes!
i need to work on my flute..
year end concert is coming~!
i need to start all my beauty regime..
i feel so old and haggard..
i need to be patient..
it's a virtue~!
Jazs.吟 -耐性是一种美德-
Cause i want to help to design the concert booklet
for this year Yuying Concert Band & Alumni Band's year end concert..
i need references~!!!!
你们不要躲了，快点出来！！！
oh wait..or did i throw them away? ?
S*** !!
i cant remember liao..
*how i hope i can apply the STM in other areas*
oh well..nvm..
While serching high and low..
i found my treasure box..
haha~!
Treasure box lei..
only a few people know..what are the "STUFFs" inside..
haha..i'll reveal the secret nx weekend..
*mystery~!!*
when i've the time to take nice nice pictures of them =)
i need to start practicing my flute..
singing :" it's like S**t, it like S**t"
if not i wont be able to make it for the year end concert liao~
this few weeks..my r/s had affected my life..
like TOTALLY~!
but.. i tell myself..
from monday onwards,
i wont let it to affect my life again..
life is too short to waste~!!!!
*Jazs Jia You~!*
i need to work my Unity 3d out..
which i hope i can smash the MAC..
where people wish to have one..
i need to work out..
xmas and new year is coming~ i wan nice clothes!
i need to work on my flute..
year end concert is coming~!
i need to start all my beauty regime..
i feel so old and haggard..
i need to be patient..
it's a virtue~!
Jazs.吟 -耐性是一种美德-
Friday, October 10, 2008
who do i rather be?
its very simple to be happie..
but its very difficult to be simple..
简单就是幸福，
这迟来得道理，
能让我从来吗？
another enlightenment..by Qin..
Thursday, October 9, 2008
不良笑花
Recently in love with 不良笑花
Ratings: ^^VVVV
Its a romance comedy lead by:
蔣小花 -楊丞琳 飾
唐門 -潘瑋柏 飾
賈思樂 -藤岡靛 飾
江蜜 -陳妍希 飾
This drama is very, i emphasize, Very lame..
Naming every item and talking to a hair dryer..
imagine how lame it is..LOL..
Love this show so much~!
Thankz Qin for intro it to me~!
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
Wants~!
lets see.. what are my wants~!?
hmm..
ah ha~! i know~!
i want everything i want~! LOL..
Lame.. i know -_______-"""
i want a compact camera..(Lumix Fx520)
i want a flute, 2nd hand preferbly.. (anyone intro me?)
i want a rebonding..or at least a treatment..
i want a holiday..
i want more dramas~!
i want to M-I-A..
i want my life to get back to normal..
i want to sleep properly..
(stop sleeping at 1am and wake up at 6am,my dark rings and bad skin & hair is back!!)
Last but never the least..
before..i can get what i want..
I WANT MONEY~!!!!
hmm..
ah ha~! i know~!
i want everything i want~! LOL..
Lame.. i know -_______-"""
i want a compact camera..(Lumix Fx520)
i want a flute, 2nd hand preferbly.. (anyone intro me?)
i want a rebonding..or at least a treatment..
i want a holiday..
i want more dramas~!
i want to M-I-A..
i want my life to get back to normal..
i want to sleep properly..
(stop sleeping at 1am and wake up at 6am,my dark rings and bad skin & hair is back!!)
Last but never the least..
before..i can get what i want..
I WANT MONEY~!!!!
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
Student DT Outing~!
ISG Open Source Lab Outing~!
Attendence:
3 dts(huiqin,kaiyi and Jazs)
3 dts(huiqin,kaiyi and Jazs)
Wan ru
Yi Chao
Ben
Nicodemus
Reuben
Went out to bugis to eat Steamboat @ 鲜的来 $17.90++ ($22.60/pax)
Air-con de lei~! Very cold~
1st time in my life eat steamboat..never perspire de wor~!
Top 2 pics is non-beef steamboat..can see the amout of ingredients?
SoOoooO empty.. know why? coz the ingredients in the other pot..
Below 2 pics is beef-steamboat..can see the amout of ingredients?
SoOoOOoO full~!!!! lolx..
Our Maria for the day..
LOL..helping us to fill ice water..
Thankz Ms Kaiyi (Maria)
Our maria the 2nd..
Benjamin!!
Thankz for helping to distribute the food..Mr Maira
Thankz for helping to distribute the food..Mr Maira
Reuben..haha~!
trying to save his non-spicy soup..coz it's over flowing~!
he reach the latest and left the earliest~!
Anyway~!
We all discover a secret..
We all discover a secret..
we thought Kaiyi's stomache is a black hole..
But..she met her match~!
WanRu~!!LOL..
her stomache is the galaxy!!
from the start, she has been eating and eating..until the end..
she still feels not full enough and still craves for ice cream..
After dinner..still a little time to spare..
we decide go pool-ling~!
and not fogetting what girls love to do~!
Cam-whoring~!LOL~!!
Sorry Ben..Bully you~!haha..
Sunday, October 5, 2008
Saturday, October 4, 2008
Thank You - My Friends
===华语篇===
景上天花的朋友，
每个人都有。
但，
雪中送炭的，
有几个？？
我很庆辛，
我能拥有好几个雪中送炭的朋友。
谢谢你们，一直陪着我， 鼓励我。
我会记在心底的=)
===English version===
When you're at your peak,
you'll be surrounded with alot of friends..
but,
When you've taken a fall,
how many of them choose to stay with you??
I'm very lucky..
I've quite a handful of them choose to stay with me..
Thank you everyone, who have been accompany me &
keep encouraging me.
I'll remember this from the bottom of my heart =)
To those who have accompanied me,hear me out,
given me advices,try to make me happy or think less..
You know who you're, i really thank you from the bottom of my heart..
thank YOU,for being with me =)
Its very often that when one involves in a r/s..
they forgot of their friends..
i would say that i didnt have alot of time to accompany my friends..
but i try my best to be with them when i'm free..
this time, its really a very very hard fall for both of us..
and its not easy to get it back on track..
this time, it needs alot of time to build to back bit by bit..
when both have arguements & wanted to give up, one has to be strong..
this time, no one choose to be strong, coz i guess we're both too tired..
so just choose to put it aside..and needs alot of courage to face it again..
but,
it is this kind of times, make the relationship really grow..
i realize that, a relationship is really a very diffcult topic to learn..
the learning process never ends..
we can encounter the same problems again n again..
or can encounter new problems..
the only way is..how determine we want to solve it..
maybe the problems repeat,coz we're not determine to solve it..
or we just did it the wrong way..
there is 101 ways..and definately one will be right..
the problems is..do we really want to try out the 101 ways?
Let me share with you a story one of my friend told me..
Title: The Chicken Wing and Drumlet
A couple(like many of us) went to a fastfood joint..
decided to get a 2 piece chicken, inculdes a chicken wing & drumlet..
the guy pick up this fave, the drumlet..
instead of eating it himself..he gave it to the girlfriend..
the girlfriend whom like the wing,
thought that he like the wing, choose to accept the drumlet he gave..
in the end, both of them didnt get what they like to eat..
coz there is no proper communication..
often in our world..
we give what we think is the best to our partner..
thinking that this is giving, this is love..
but how often do we ever think is this what our partner really wants?
even if we know what our partners want, can we fufill them?
to your suprise..alot of us can..temporally..
but at the end of the day,when we got tired of it, the things got back to square one..
coz this is not us..coz we're not changing to suit into other half of our lives,
from the bottom of our hearts..
if we do change, from the bottom of our hearts to provide them with what we can..
or accept the unchangables..
putting in effort, even its a very little act of care, the other party can feel it..
This is Love..
Bii, i'll wait.... to see a beautiful ending..
we're taking this break..coz we know we love each other..
Thursday, October 2, 2008
enlightenment~
well..yesterday went out and did something different on me..
which i'll post later..
no time to take pictures yet..
other than that..
Stephanie..had enlighten me with her words..
*_Stephie If only I could find the answer to help me understand.. says (12:08 AM):
When the going gets tough, the tough gets going.
*_Stephie If only I could find the answer to help me understand.. says (12:09 AM):
when u feel that life is horrible right now
*_Stephie If only I could find the answer to help me understand.. says (12:09 AM):
and that everything's not going well
*_Stephie If only I could find the answer to help me understand.. says (12:09 AM):
everything is so hard
*_Stephie If only I could find the answer to help me understand.. says (12:09 AM):
it's a test for u
*_Stephie If only I could find the answer to help me understand.. says (12:09 AM):
a test that will show how strong u are
*_Stephie If only I could find the answer to help me understand.. says (12:09 AM):
the weak will just give up
*_Stephie If only I could find the answer to help me understand.. says (12:10 AM):
the tough will make it a point, be determined to pass thru this hard stage and see the days with rainbow very soon
What she said make me gave a thought about it..
and it make sense..^^
everyone has ups and downs..
no one will forever to in the "UP" situation..
and not one will forever be in the "DOWN" situation..
Its how you face and look at a diffculty..
Its is a Problem? or is it a Challenge?
whether you want to face it or run away..
You can run but you cant hide..
when there is half a cup of water..
It depends if you look at it as..
Half empty cup..
or..
Half filled cup..
This came back to one of my goals of change..
"To look at a situaion with a wider angel..
change to another perspective and take a look again..
dont be stubbon and keep wanting it go your way..
看开点"
i feel better..
Thankz steph~!!!
Jazs.吟
which i'll post later..
no time to take pictures yet..
other than that..
Stephanie..had enlighten me with her words..
*_Stephie If only I could find the answer to help me understand.. says (12:08 AM):
When the going gets tough, the tough gets going.
*_Stephie If only I could find the answer to help me understand.. says (12:09 AM):
when u feel that life is horrible right now
*_Stephie If only I could find the answer to help me understand.. says (12:09 AM):
and that everything's not going well
*_Stephie If only I could find the answer to help me understand.. says (12:09 AM):
everything is so hard
*_Stephie If only I could find the answer to help me understand.. says (12:09 AM):
it's a test for u
*_Stephie If only I could find the answer to help me understand.. says (12:09 AM):
a test that will show how strong u are
*_Stephie If only I could find the answer to help me understand.. says (12:09 AM):
the weak will just give up
*_Stephie If only I could find the answer to help me understand.. says (12:10 AM):
the tough will make it a point, be determined to pass thru this hard stage and see the days with rainbow very soon
What she said make me gave a thought about it..
and it make sense..^^
everyone has ups and downs..
no one will forever to in the "UP" situation..
and not one will forever be in the "DOWN" situation..
Its how you face and look at a diffculty..
Its is a Problem? or is it a Challenge?
whether you want to face it or run away..
You can run but you cant hide..
when there is half a cup of water..
It depends if you look at it as..
Half empty cup..
or..
Half filled cup..
This came back to one of my goals of change..
"To look at a situaion with a wider angel..
change to another perspective and take a look again..
dont be stubbon and keep wanting it go your way..
看开点"
i feel better..
Thankz steph~!!!
Jazs.吟
你是我的天空
欧得洋-我是你的天空 (Click here to listen)
用一颗心来
感觉你的爱
只希望你能明白
我的心中
也只有你
我也只想要保护你
从第一天起
我就爱上你
因为你真的很贴心
你的笑容 在我心里
我现在唱这一首歌给你
我要和你手牵手
永远不回头
一起勇敢向前走
如果有什么波折
有我的胸口
紧紧贴在你左右
一直握着你的手
永远不回头
因为你是我的梦
永不放弃
因为爱你
若你是星星
我是你的天空
当你在
我心中
微笑一直在我的脸孔
默默在
你心中
我也会有一点感动
我知道我最爱你
永不放弃
因为有你在我的心里
你和我不分离
我要和你手牵手
永远不回头
一起勇敢向前走
如果有什么波折
有我的胸口
紧紧贴在你左右 一直握着你的手
永远不回头
因为你是我的梦
永不放弃
因为爱你
若你是星星
我是你的天空
我希望能一直当你的天空 ^^v
用一颗心来
感觉你的爱
只希望你能明白
我的心中
也只有你
我也只想要保护你
从第一天起
我就爱上你
因为你真的很贴心
你的笑容 在我心里
我现在唱这一首歌给你
我要和你手牵手
永远不回头
一起勇敢向前走
如果有什么波折
有我的胸口
紧紧贴在你左右
一直握着你的手
永远不回头
因为你是我的梦
永不放弃
因为爱你
若你是星星
我是你的天空
当你在
我心中
微笑一直在我的脸孔
默默在
你心中
我也会有一点感动
我知道我最爱你
永不放弃
因为有你在我的心里
你和我不分离
我要和你手牵手
永远不回头
一起勇敢向前走
如果有什么波折
有我的胸口
紧紧贴在你左右 一直握着你的手
永远不回头
因为你是我的梦
永不放弃
因为爱你
若你是星星
我是你的天空
我希望能一直当你的天空 ^^v
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
Love is
Define Love( dictionary)
–noun
1.a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person.
2.a feeling of warm personal attachment or deep affection
3.a person toward whom love is felt; beloved person; sweetheart.
4.affectionate concern for the well-being of others
5.strong predilection, enthusiasm, or liking for anything
Define Love (Kids)
1.Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs.
2.Love is what makes you smile when you're tired.
3.Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My Mommy and Daddy are like that.They look gross when they kiss
4.If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate
5.Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday.
6.You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget.
Define Love ( People around me)
1.Love has no definition, not logic, no method, its unexplainable
2.Love is to have someone, who this there to share your happiness and woes
3.Love.... generally is learning to give than to take
4.Love is learning to esteem the person more than oneself
5.Love is unconditional
6.Love is still willing to love,care,concern about someone, even though he/she is angry with you
7.Love is never to compare
8. Love is able to let you do things, you cant
Define Love (me)
1. Love is never to compare and complain, coz every r/s is unique in its own way
2. Love is to able to accept weaknesses and see it as a strength
3. Love is to be able to accept people who you dont like to be your friends
4. Love is to be able to see situation in another angle, less stubbon and Kan Kai.
Accept a problem(impromptu anot) and find a solution
5.Love is to hold,to support,to be pround of,to be honest(not to white lie),
to have trust and faith in each other even though a promise is broken
6.Love is to hug,to kiss,to be there, to comfort the one, telling them,
i love you and it will be alright when things went terriblely wrong
7.Love is to mean what you say and dont say what you didnt mean
8. Love is meant to come from the heart, not the brain. Let each other feel,
its still the first day of the relationship.The effort u put in to see another smile =)
9. Love is to understand, doesnt mean they dont love they way you wanted,
they dont love you with all they've got.
I didnt know how to love..
From this day forward, i'm gonna work towards it..
Its easier said than done..but..i WILL do it
See me metamorphosis~
Jazs.吟 is determined~!
–noun
1.a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person.
2.a feeling of warm personal attachment or deep affection
3.a person toward whom love is felt; beloved person; sweetheart.
4.affectionate concern for the well-being of others
5.strong predilection, enthusiasm, or liking for anything
Define Love (Kids)
1.Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs.
2.Love is what makes you smile when you're tired.
3.Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My Mommy and Daddy are like that.They look gross when they kiss
4.If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate
5.Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday.
6.You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget.
Define Love ( People around me)
1.Love has no definition, not logic, no method, its unexplainable
2.Love is to have someone, who this there to share your happiness and woes
3.Love.... generally is learning to give than to take
4.Love is learning to esteem the person more than oneself
5.Love is unconditional
6.Love is still willing to love,care,concern about someone, even though he/she is angry with you
7.Love is never to compare
8. Love is able to let you do things, you cant
Define Love (me)
1. Love is never to compare and complain, coz every r/s is unique in its own way
2. Love is to able to accept weaknesses and see it as a strength
3. Love is to be able to accept people who you dont like to be your friends
4. Love is to be able to see situation in another angle, less stubbon and Kan Kai.
Accept a problem(impromptu anot) and find a solution
5.Love is to hold,to support,to be pround of,to be honest(not to white lie),
to have trust and faith in each other even though a promise is broken
6.Love is to hug,to kiss,to be there, to comfort the one, telling them,
i love you and it will be alright when things went terriblely wrong
7.Love is to mean what you say and dont say what you didnt mean
8. Love is meant to come from the heart, not the brain. Let each other feel,
its still the first day of the relationship.The effort u put in to see another smile =)
9. Love is to understand, doesnt mean they dont love they way you wanted,
they dont love you with all they've got.
I didnt know how to love..
From this day forward, i'm gonna work towards it..
Its easier said than done..but..i WILL do it
See me metamorphosis~
Jazs.吟 is determined~!
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