consolidating my messy thoughts

well..this few days i've been thinking real hard..

listening to advices,experience..
thinking what i've done wrong and right..
what i need to change..

i still need a few days to consolidate..
to think and search..

but finally..i stop myself from disturbing him..
i'm proud of myself..
this is what i call..


A CHANGE~!

人， 就是这样。
永远都要等到失去了，才懂得珍惜的意义。
才懂得面对事实，面对问题，才能解开心结。

现在的我， 还是想坚持最初的选择与决定。
应为， 我相信，这一切的发生， 一定有解释不了的原因。

其中之一， 就是让人成长， 和懂得爱人与被爱的意义。


a big step i took out of my comfort zone..

The only way to expand the comfort zone..

is to step out of it..

this time..

i'm sure..

i'm changing~!!

F1 Singapore Grand Prix : Highlights

Just to share..i dunno how long the video will last..

Sweet~

Still feeling very down today..

I guess i need sometime to recuperate..

FYI..we're taking a break..not a rest..

How long? i've no idea..

I guess the both of us is really tired..

It's very complicated..

and i'm at a lost..

we're very different..in terms of thinking and character

(relationship should be between 2 different people?

if they're the same they would be called twins right?)

We still have problems..which seemed solved..but still unsolved..

and other stuffs..

i'm feeling contradicted..

i dont understand why i think one way and acted/said another way..

i'm feeling suffocating coz i'm stubbon/看不开/thinking too much and

unable to view problems in another angle/wider view..not being able to admit mistake

i'm not understanding/flexible enough to except unexpected changes..

i want to be a better person..

and i guess i have to learn it the hard way..

after tidying up my feelings..

i'll embark on a journey of CHANGE..

this time i'll make it~!

Its very sweet of my friend to get me bin bin..

but i cant eat too much..coz i'll cough (allergic)..

Thank Qin~!

And my lab students are so sweet too..

they got me Hershey's C&C..

one of my fave Choco..

Thankz Chang Yuan =)

Thankz for the sweet thought..

i really appreciate it =)

these made me feel better..

and..i need to talk more~!

Jazs.吟

thinking to myself

Even thought one is not loving you the way you wanted,

doesnt mean that they didnt love you will all they have or able to give..

again, i only understand this meaning when things happen..

people only start to wake up, and learn their lesson when the situation is down to the max..

Chances came and go..

alot of things changed,

but also alot of things left unchanged..

its those unchangeable things i've to change..

when a problems come back to you more than 1 time,

it forms a pattern..

the only way to break the pattern is to change,

the way the pattern is being formed..

everyone could change(the pattern), if they're determine to..how determined that its..

in fact, everyone is changing everyday, even without noticing..

i am definately gonna make it happen

i am definately gonna change it..~!

one type of person

There is one type of person that constantly complains and whine.

No matter what happens in their life, good for bad, they just complain that “nothing good ever happens to them”. After awhile, you just stop caring.

When you personally experience some success, the whiners again complains- but now they complain about your success and how is it not fair that they “never get the lucky breaks”

After awhile, the last thing you do is to associate yourself with them, as all they do is to bring you down to their level.

In the end, you eventually just stop caring because of the constant complaining and the constant negativity.

and, this type of person refers to me..
but..i just came accross this book yesterday..
althought it came to me a little late..and i realize it a little too late..
but its never too late to change..

i should Change..
i wish to Change..
i ought to Change..
i'd like to Change..
i have to Change..
i need to Change..
i must Change..
i want to Change..
i can Change..
i will Change..
i'm going to Change..
and
i am Changing...

Deverstated

Totally no mood to blog about what happen..

i've just fallen into the deepest valley..from the sky above..
feeling totally deverstated,sad,lost,horribally depressed..

i do hope that things will turn for the better..
which, nothing can guarentees me for that..

feel even worst from past few weeks..
my mood has been going down from good to bad,bad to worst..
worst to..(any words that can descirbe worst than worst)

no words can descibe my feelings now..
i dont feel human..omg..
save me~~~~

i need a change in me..
can anymore format me away?

Cold Bird Cage To Warm Fish Tank

Shifted Lab..

well..the Old lab was EXTREME cold..

we even say we need winter wear..coz our fingers were numb..

that's how bad it is..

BUT..i was well hidden behind PCs and bird cage..

i can do things secrectly..

but NOW~~

shifted to a NEW fish tank lab..

with brighter lights (or i should say, the floor reflects light)

surrounded with glass windows..feels so..Insecure..

Now..everyone is so exposed..

even me..oh well..

Kana caught by students today 

but the good thing,
i dont need to spent money to get myself winterwear..

Jazs.吟

Dinner with Qin

I WAS SACKED~!!

haha..no la..just shifting lab..
but just by packing up our stuff..made us felt like being sacked..

see this emo me, packing up belongings, ready to shift tmr

After work, decided to go dinner with Qin..

Destination: Ichiban @ Ang Mo Kio hub

i like the sashimi covers that wrote "i'm raw"

so cute~!

Alas, Cam-whoring~~

Cam-whoring is a nv miss event..

while waiting for the food to be served..

Above is our dishes with Chawamushi Rice Set(CRS)

Mine is the Hotate Cheese Yaki @ $9.90 + CRS @ $6.30 = $16.20

It's a dish for mayonnaise or cheese fanatic like HuiQin,

the japanese sweet mayonnaise was laid as base,

for the fat & juicy scallop with chewy enoki mushroom to sit on top.

it was then covered with un-stingy amount of cheese,

pop into the oven for baking of the crispy crust.

but i eventually got sick of the gracious amout of mayo and cheese

at the end of the meal.

Deserves: ^^VVV

HuiQin had Chicken Terikayi @$8.90 + CRS @ $6.30 = $15.20

Fresh Chicken was done to the "Crispy on the ouside and juicy on in inside" kinda effect.

with Ichiban's terriyaki sauce(except it was abit salty),

made the dish almost perfect dish anyone.

Deserves: ^^VVV

Jazs.吟 Enjoys the dinner ^^

大白兔奶糖

SINGAPORE: Singapore's Agri-Food and Veterinary Authority (AVA) says
its latest laboratory findings show that the "White Rabbit Creamy Candy(大白兔奶糖)" from China is also contaminated with melamine.

It advises consumers who have bought the affected product not to consume them.
The latest test results bring the total number of milk and related products from China

imported into Singapore that are found to be contaminated with melamine to three.

Read More...

AwWwwW..my one of my favourite sweet~~~
contaminated with melamine.. =( i ate soOooOOo much of that during my FYP time..

now i'm contaminated with traces of melamine too~!! =(

Re-Charging Period

Took 2days off to re-charge myself..

Thursday-18th Sept:
Rot-ted at home~
Watch tv,drama,movie..
eat,lie on bed,chit-chat with mom~

Friday-19th Sept:

Dating with Mr.Bii..

Went to Topone,we Sing,Sang & Sung until my voice was almost gone..

And!!
finally got the chance to eat MOF-Ministry Of Food~!!

I've been craving it, since alot of people have +ve comments on it..

It's situated @ Bugis Junction (Cafe & Restaurant)
200 Victoria Street #02-45 Bugis Junction S(188021). Tel: 65-63386466

They provide free flow of hot green tea @$1/cup

Agedashi Tofu @$5

Deep fried crispy tofu in unqiue blend of tempura sauce

Deserves: ^^VVVv

Tempura Udon @ $11.80

Snowy huge prawns coated with crispy jacket,

accompanied with slippery Udon in light soup

Deserves: ^^VVVv

Teriyaki Bento @ $8.80

Tender well marinated chicken grilled to it's best,

topped with special teriyaki sauce enhances the aroma of the chicken.

together with soft egg crumbs, every mouth of the bento

is worth the bite!

Deserves : ^^VVVVv

Shiratama Kurizen @ $6.80

Hokkaido flown red bean paste differs from normal red bean i've tasted,

in addition of QQ dumpling and "melts in the mouth" soft serve,

brings the sweetness to the MAX!

once single scoop will make you continue to scoop till it's dry~

Deserves: ^^VVVVV (Must Try!!)

Macha Kurian @ $8.80

Deliciously decorated fresh fruits,soft serve,

macha ice cream and Hokkaido red bean paste.

Its a mixture of sweetness that compensates the

tasteless & colorless kanten jelly(known for its slimming effect).

Deserves: ^^VVv

Overall: ^^VVVV

i've enjoyed the day with Mr.Bii..

Even though my leg muscles is rolling itself into a ball..

Saturday -20th Sept

Went a rackie[Dunno how to spell =( ] trip with Mr.Bii on

his new reporting place on monday.

It's situated at some Ulu Ulu place..Nearest MRT station? Bukit Batok

Lunch at MOS burger, went to fuji ice palace to watch people skate

headed home there after..

By the time i reach home..my pair of legs..

doesnt even feel like mine anymore

Sunday -21st Sept

Repeats the process on thursday ^^""

Jazs.吟 feels Happie~!

Quiz

Your Love Score Is: 60

It's love, but it's definitely not ideal. Your relationship brings a lot of heartache too. On an average day, you are happy and content with your partner. But there are a lot of problems under the surface. Maybe your relationship has a lot of baggage. Or maybe you don't communicate with each other as well as you could. Either way, you both have a bit of resentment toward one another... whether you'll admit it or not. You can get the love you want. It may be possible in this relationship, but there are no guarantees. Do your best to listen more, communicate better, and compromise as much as you can. Give it your best before you give up.

Are You in Love?

Lapsus

thoughts

每一个难题 都是让我们成长的一课

不要灰心，不要放弃，

努力的往前走，才能迎接未来的到来..

加油哦bii！！ 明天会更好！！

thoughts

期望越大， 失望越大。

没有期望，没有失望。

Bakerzin

Prices are quoted for whole cakes.. (before GST, according to Candice)
Slices range from ($6.20-$6.90)

Lavande ( $56 )
Lavender infused dark chocolate mousse cake with macaroons on the side.

Rating: ^^VV

New York Cheesecake( $39)
Cream cheese coated with a tangy strawberry glaze and dotted with seasonal berries.

Ratings: ^^VVV

Mango Mousse ( $25) Fresh mango mousse with light finger sponge. Topped with mixed fruits Rating:^^VVv

Tiramisu ( $25)
An Italian cheesecake made from mascapone cheese. The finger sponge is soaked in an espresso syrup with brandy & white rum. The mousse is flavoured with masala wine.
Ratings: ^^VVVv

Bloom( $48)
A lavish lemon cheesecake made with premium cream cheese, semi-candied lemon and lemon zest, topped with a luminous saffron mirror glaze.
Ratings: ^^VV

Cookies and Cream Cheesecake($39)
Cream cheese studded with cookie crumble and sprinkled with crushed cookie bits.
Ratings: ^^VVv

Arabella($52)
Luscious Jivara mousse with caramelised bananas, fruity ginger and passion fruit puree.
Ratings: ^^Vv

Jazs.吟

Inconsidertate Act-002

Another person place his own belongings on a seat..

Instead of giving the seat to other people..

You know..some(i emphasize, SOME) elderly thinks that everyone should give in to them..

just because they're the elderly..

eg: crossing the road SLOWLY, even its red light..

crossing the road SLOWLY,even there is no traffic light..

My Mum and I witness an old man,at chinatown area..

crossing the 3 lane road, slowly,without using the traffic light,

even there is a traffic light(like some 100 steps away)..

Cars horned at him..stopped just for him..

but he just sashay his way accross..

THIS IS VERY DANGEROUS!!

perhaps, that's why accidents happen..

Sigh~~~

Jazs.吟

A saturday with Jinyi

It was Jinyi's 21st birthday..
Sorry lei..nv prepare anything for you..
but..heng u got us..coz you can taste 4 different types of cakes at one go~!!

We tried 4 different flavours from Secret Recipe..

Chocolate Banana : ^^VVVVV
Chocolate Mocha: ^^VVVVv

Chocolate Indulgence: ^^VVVV

White Macadamia:^^VVV

Ming Yao, Eugene and Jinyi Posing~!!!

Group photo time~!!!

Went to Mogu Mogu @ Far East Plaza to Makan dinner..

Got to know Mogu Mogu from Qin..

Well..the food is Okie la..
but choices are very limited..

After order using the machine in the shop..

We're asked to wait for our number to be called..

So..when the boss called out the number..
it sounded like in prison~!! LOL~!!

Some how i realize that,
dont know if it's Eugene's eyes became bigger..

or my eyes became smaller..

*NO~!!! i dont wan my eyes to shrink~!!!*

Finally the most important thing~!

Thank you for the effort..although i didnt really get you anything..
except the Cookie and Cream Kit Kat..
which i ate half of it where it suppose to be yours.. 

I'll try to think as positive as possible, just like Yoko~!
*think positive* "I shall pick up $50, on my way home~~"

Jazs.吟

Mid-Autumn Festival

This year's Mid-Autumn Festival didnt get to go chinese garden nor play with the candles..

I'm just rotting my Mid-Autumn Festival at home..LOLx!!

But..But.. i bought Mooncakes..
This time round i bought 3 pieces of Mooncakes..

Must be wondering:

"HUH!! how to buy 3 pieces sia? nomally not comes in a pack of 4 meh?"

Yup..i've got my ways~!!!

well..i bought 2 pieces for Bii's family..

and one piece for mine..coz my family dont really like to eat Mooncakes..

TOO SWEET~  i need my chinese tea..... to suck out all the oil.............

I got my purchase from 麦可思..
a brand i heard b4, but well..
It doesnt really matter to me, what's most important is the packaging
and the TASTE!!

The package of the Mooncakes is so nice and sweet~
Oriental and Japanese style..in pastel colors..

I bought for Bii's family a low sugar white lotus and raspberry cheese..
not in Snow Skin but in Baked Skin..

Must be thinking:
"HUH!! raspberry cheese in bake skin??? Nice meH??"
I tell you it's really nice..
I even saw a granny bought it~

i bought for my family this  Toffee Chocolate Walnut Brownie(in Bake Skin..Again)
a chef recommendation, which is toffee paste with full-flavoured,
delectable walnut brownie.An absoulte indulgence of rich flavours..

one bite of it, and i decide to get 1 piece..without any packaging..

well..i realize that alot of Mooncakes are overly packaged and priced..

recent news had been commenting how over packaging Mooncakes have caused the

price of the Mooncakes to hike..

after much thought, what so important about package of the Mooncakes??

in the end, its the Mooncakes that goes into your stomach, not the package what..

but,packaging is still a major look out for peeps like me..who want to buy it as a gift..

but i'll never buy over packaged and priced mooncake..
SAVE THE EARTH~!!!

FIY, i bought this 3 pieces of Mooncakes in less than $25..
And the box is made of decomposable hard cardboards..

Jazs.吟

Personality Test

Ser Ser sent me this personality test..

and i think it's quite true =)

Click on the image to try out the test~

Jazs.吟