settled..

we argue, we pissed off, we shut ourselves down, we run, we hide,

we think over,we talked, we settled..

i know him well enough..
and i know my relationship with him well enough..

i dont mind making mistakes..i dont mind we making mistakes together..
which couple or rather which relationship doesnt
have it's own problems or doesnt make mistakes?
as long as we learn from each mistakes and grow together..
i'm more than delighted..


but..sometimes..the same mistakes happen and happen again and again..
u feel..........depressed..upset..and dont know what to do..
when both parties have different views..and un-common ground..

its very hard to compromise,understand & solve the problem..
so..the issue put on "HOLD"..
and by putting it on "HOLD" doesnt equate to "solved"..

at least to a girl..it's not a solved issue..
alot of girls kept it in their heart..
even though they mind alot..they dont dare to voice it out to the other party..
they just wanted the other party to be happy and rather suffer themselves..
thus..the other party took it for granted that..
their girlfriends are compromising them..
and vice versa..

a relationship is called a relationship for a reason..
relationship:an emotional or other connection between people

if both parties just kept quiet about their emotions,
dont communicate about it..agree on it..

instead choose to run or hide..

then..it isnt a relationship after all..i guess

if i didnt even care about or feel for my boyfriend..

i wouldn't be even caught in a dilemma..

just thinking that its alright..
kept quiet..suffer..not understanding each other's needs..

eventually..breakup..

army is a very tough period i would say..
i get to see him less than 8hrs per week..
you worry for him.. afarid that things happen to him..
Especially he has a weak ankle and sprained it the 3rd time..

Especially during the field camp..you dont even get to called him..

everyday you can only be praying hard that he's okie..

he will be able to pull thorugh physically and emotionally..

you pray.. you cry..you dont feel like leting him go back to camp..
but.. you still have to.. even though how much u hate him going back..
you have to let go..you can do nothing..

but putting on the brave front..encourage him..that its okie..
giving him moral support..and emotional support..

5 days soon will past and you'll be able to book out again..

its not easy being a girlfriend of a ns man..

for those who are going through the same process of what i am going through now..

you'll feel me..

my blog is a place for me to jot down my feelings..
whether you like it or not..
for those who cared..and show their concerns..
thank you..i really appriciate them alot..

i welcome all constructive comments..
comments from those who have been through the same process..
and those who can share their experience..

but for those who cant understand..what i'm going through..
and making said easier than done comments..
you're always free to stop reading and visit my blog and leave..

Thank you for visiting though..

Jazs.吟