Blue Rose

Blue Rose - Fave flower

I love blue rose, coz there is actually no REAL blue rose..haha..
Those blue ones you've seen, uses blue dye, to dye a white rose blue..
Its very tough to find those, dyed nicely blue rose..
I'm weird right?

but..i love it because people all over the world is trying to make it happen..
To realize a dream into reality..
I often associate Blue Rose - Do your best to realize your dream into reality

Another meaning of the blue rose is that it
symbolizes the impossible, or the unattainable.
Since the blue rose itself is a rarity in nature,
it stands for something that is hardly within one's grasp,
an object that seems too difficult to be achieved.
Thus the blue rose is admired and revered as an unrealizable dream.


And now~!!!
Now for the first time, thanks to genetic engineering, blue roses finally exist.

Credits to Getty Images
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Finally, Something once a dream..had become a reality =)
That's what i've been hoping for..
Nothing is Impossible in this world..
Cause we're the ones who make impossibles possible..

I want a REAL blue rose~!!!!
Definately cost a bomb~~OH WELL~~~~

Sketching

You know de la..

I very greedy de..

SOooOOooOOoo Much things i want to learn..

Learning to Sketch my own character..

Yet to think of a name for her..

Above sketch is noob la..i know..

just wanted to share..

Welcome all C&C..

New style

Abit sianz... with my way of dressing..
so..i'm trying to expose myself..(dont any how Think ar~!)



To different dressing style..
Wore that dress to concert on sat..
At 1st i think i look like alien with that dress..

But after the re-assurance of my mum and ser..
finally, i dare to wear it out..LOL..

Oh ya oh ya~!
FINALLY~!!!!!! Finally.....

I made my purchase of BOOTS..
Boots okie..not Boobs..
After 2 mths of whining..

Make a quick guess of the price..

Dont drop jaw oh~

It just cost me $19 bucks..

and, its just the way i wanted (=

I'm happy

Wave 13 - Sole Searching

Wave 13 - Sole Searching

*note* sorry ar..the pics abit blur..coz i used my hp camera..

Went to SP with SerSer and her family =)

To attend Wave 13, support support her bro..LOL..

Her bro is so prominent..simply coz his TALL and SLIM~!!

Overall..the performace was quite good..
but..当中有一段小插曲。。

when we going back to the concert hall,there is a little convo breakdown..
between The Ursher and Us(ser ser and me)

-At the door-

Usher: " its going to be intermission, you all wan to wait outside 1st?"
Us: " huh? eh..we want to go in.."
Usher: " but, its gonna be intermission soon....."
Us: "huh? our seats is just at the side, can we go in?"
Usher-
Us-

Usher-

Us: "nvm..we wait outside......."

Then they open the door and watch the dance from the door..
SerSer & Me - walked into the hall, stand with them and watch the dance..
when our seats is just 5 steps away..

-Me Thinking-

You ask if we want to wait outside..
We say we dont want..den you dont let us go in..
Even our seats is just 5 steps away..
and we have to stand and watch with u??

OKIE~
I'M LOST~~~

Quote

Every King was once a crying baby

and

every great building was once a picture.

It's not about where you are today

but it's about where you will reach tomorrow.


Came accross this while reading someone's profile..

was amazed and find that it is very meaning full.

A dream will always be a dream until you realize it..

Finally i took my move

Finally, i made my move to go for driving..

Though i cant even cross the road properly,

i still hope that i can drive my own car one day =)

Finally..My BTT booking~!!

Need to study..coz i want a one time pass~!!!

Still wondering if i should go for class 3 or class 3A..

*uMmmmMmm*

Programmes

Well..after the terrible event..

Totally affected my mood..
no mood to work..
wats worst when u feel the at the lowest
AND~
see your boss walking towards you??

Ji tau sian diao..~!!!

pass weeks i've been packing myself with activities..
so that i dont tink about it..or i can make myself feel better..

ya it did help abit..
but..when de day ends..i feel much the same..

took off on 23 & 24..without realizing it was actually PH on 27..
so..i had a LooOoong weekend..which i didnt plan for..

What i've done for the past 2 weeks:
-Went ktv twice..
-went to eat good food
-meet up with friends..
-going for band prac
-went to nypso concert last night..

did alot of bonding with friends..
which i've neglected when i was attached..
so sorry..
i'm so lazy to upload the photos and edit them..

well..

and i list out attributes i need to change..
and the list of things i wanna achieve..

-slim down~!! haha..
-pick up music theory
-pick up flute
-pick up conducting.. (like very far ar...)
-driving licence.. going to book basic theory nx week..
-maybe will learn investment
-must jia you on my work..and concentrate..
-learn singing
-lean dancing
-learn korean language..LOL

need money man.. lol~~

oh ya~
i wan to go 四湾岛 eat seafood~!!

okie..
no link..i know..

Past Days

After so many years in NYP..

Like 4th year..

1st time i'm able to go for their annual concert..

Sinfonique 08

coz past few years..i'm always busy on the day of the concert

Presenting to you..

NYPSO under the baton of Mr Leonard Tan.

Mr Leonard Tan is a conductor full of passion..

can feel that he really enjoyed the performance..

oh ya.. the Masters of Ceromony (MC) for the night was....

i should say..super funnie..

i couldnt help but laugh everytime the guy speaks..

due to de way he atticulate his words..

31st Aug~!

Halloween~!

Other than that, was shifu's birthday..

Happie birthday to you~!!

Mr Steven Phua~~aka ShiFu~!!

From today onwards..

From this post onwards..
From today onwards..
From now onwards..

I'm not gonna post about anything related to the r/s..

I wan to get over and done with it..

yes..i am bad..with all older post you can see..
i'm childish..
ming is right..i'm childish..
and i choose to be childish and refused to grow up..

so..i'm freaking determine to figure out with my mind..
my heart and my soul..
what i want? i what i need?

what i can change..
what i need to stay with..

and i'm freaking gonna move on..
freaking need to get rid of this negative attitude in me..
i want to get back my confidence i had lost..
get back the happy,bubbly and happy go lucky kind of me..
i missed that..

i dont wan to be locked up inside this dark world anymore..

i wan to him and them to disappear from my world..

i wan to go refresh the world i had..
without all of them..
not forgetting the lesson learnt..

i want to be a better person..
i want to open up my big eyes and see..
i want to grow my heart to feel..
i wan to expand my brain to think..

so that i can make the best out of the next r/s..
if it comes by..

DONT EVER MAKE THE SAME BLOODY MISTAKE AGAIN~!!!

IMPROVE MY OWN JUDGEMENT~!!

i tink the tornado i created, really swipe out everything in my way..
created chaos, lives injured..
i didnt know i was so powerful..
now its time..it should subside.. =)

i shall be down..use this hurtful time to tink..
and when time heals my wound..

den need u all to relink again~! whahaha..SRY NEH~!!

you

Rightfully..you're right..
it's actually none of your business..


just that i wanted to let the anger/sadness/or whatever feeling out..

from the start..i didnt even said that you're involved..
i just said that he said that " bla bla bla"

dont know why is everyone thinking that i'm involving you..
and maybe due of what he said made me feel that i'm living under your shawdow..
feeling insecure..and all..

maybe you may think that the shadow had never been there..
cause you're not the one under it..

maybe you feel that you had nothing to hide..
but the closeness between both of you..
or the pictures that i seen..
just make me feel more uneasy..

i dont deny both of you are good friends..
but..doesnt mean that all girls can accept their bf to have a very close friend..
esp, one that has a story behind it..
at least, for me..i couldnt take it..

but he hide things from me..
and ya..coz he's afriad that i think too much..

so,if there is nothing to hide..why did he lied?i've no idea..
so.. i made assumptions..
assumptions that never had been there..
assumptions that made things more complicated and difficult..

i do admit that he's a very good friend..
he was a good bf..initally..
maybe i expected too much..or i'm too paranoid..

he couldnt understand why i acted this way..
dunno what i needed to stay clam.. maybe i'm too hot tempered..
neither can i understand why he have to do such things..

coz he didnt know how to handle..
or both of us doesnt know how to handle..
or just say that we dont fit into each other's world..

i cant accept his everything..
i cant accept that he is very different from me..
i cant accept his past..
i cant accept what he like..
i cant be less paranoid..
i cant be contented..
i cant control my temper..

i couldn't kan de kai..
i couldn't pretend that i dont care..
i couldn't pretend nothing happened..
i couldn't accept the reasons why he lied..

i didnt have confidence..
i didnt walk out of the shadow..
i didnt see it as simple..

i assume..
i think too much..
i care too much..
i afraid too much..

most important..i dunno what i SHOULD be saying..
and what i SHOULDN'T be saying..

which is a good lesson for me..

just wanted people to think in another angle..
b4 they start their heroic act..

i'm at fault..no one to blame..
it's me..doesnt know how to handle r/s,
properly..
i's me that started all these..
so..come,point all the arrows to me..
shoot me with all that all you've got..

are all of you happy now?

and you're right..
the choice is mine..
and i de things i do..made this r/s comes to an end..

i'm just not as magnanimous/as cheerful/as 董事..

but still..i dont feel as much guilt as i thought i would feel..
maybe i feel that, i'm not the only hand to make a clap..

so..from today onwards..
i choose to delete anyone related to this..
out of my world..


*note*
if you just happen to see me out there in the streets..
just happen that if you're wondering should you smile or nod..

just dont..